Part time

I officially started part time this week.  I will now have Thursdays and Friday off to be with the kiddos.   I am excited to spend more time with them, especially while they are young!  I am so blessed that work is allowing me to do this.  My job will change a little.  I will no longer see patients in clinic which is bittersweet.  I love my patients and the interaction I have with them.  So not having that side of my job is going to be sad, but
I look forward to seeing where my job goes as part time and also to experiencing everyday life with my kiddos more.  I will be honest, I am also a little nervous about being home with the kiddos more.  I hope and pray that I have the patience to love them well on the days where there is lots of crying, tears, or fights.  I know that being a mom is the toughest job in the world, one of the best, most honorable jobs in the world.  So much our kids learn is through parents and I want to be there to show them the world and teach them about God's love and grace for them.  I worry about not measuring up-feel like with this going part time that I have to be a supermom, a mom that's always taking her kids on adventures, always joyful in my time with them, always creative and thinking of new things to do with them.  Man, with this expectation for myself do I set myself up for failure.  In all reality, I am sure there will be some great days that I have with them and some not so great days.  We may have days where we go on an adventure, or some days where we stay in our PJs all day.  I don't have to create a new craft everyday, we don't have to go somewhere fun everyday, in fact some days a tickle fight during the day may be the most exciting thing we do.  I will fail as a mom probably many times, I will mess up, lose my patience too quickly sometimes.  But I know that everyday I will love my kiddos, no matter if it's a good or bad day. We will have adventures together, we will be silly and creative and play together.  I will treasure this time, for it will be a short time in life.  Before we know it they will be in school, so I will pray to God that I love my children well during this phase of our life and that I allow myself to be human, to ask for forgiveness and grace when I mess up and to not worry about being perfect, instead just focusing on trying to love our kiddos well!